pain
i’ve always thought i belonged with them.
they were my friends.
i was loyal to them.
i was kind to them.
i cracked jokes and shared laughter with them.
i was myself around them.
but all of a sudden,
i find myself alone.
they don’t call anymore.
they don’t ask me how my day is
or check in on me like i do them.
they don’t even text me back.
and so when i see that dinner on her story,
i think nothing of it.
and then i click over.
and it’s the same thing.
her story has the same meal.
and so does theirs!
and hers!
and
i realize.
they never asked me if i was free.
they never once asked me to hang out.
i was only invited cause everyone else was too.
they don’t want me anymore.
i will never be one of them,
i never was.
